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I shall not end my life and hurt you worse,

Despite the ideation in my mind--

How cruel an act! If reason I can find,

I'll fix it in my head, beguile the curse.

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No healing comes from lying in a hearse,

I know. There is no need, so don't remind;

If we ca…

Today I broke a friendship once again

It lately seems to happen every day

I try so to be kind, but what I say

Hurts lovely people, causing grief and pain

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How come? It truly goes against the grain

I long to be a nurturer, and pay

Respect, attention--Sadl…

Today my nails are red; so are my shorts,

And, as I shaved my arms at CCH,

That colour flowed again. And, glad to see

My blood come dripping down, I slashed again.

Oh, fire-engine red looked fair to me--

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But then I thought back, and I bit my tongue,

Rec…

I don't get you. I don't get me.

I should give up, as you can see.

Thanks for the friendship; thanks a lot.

I'm here, where ev'ry day's too hot.

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Don't follow me! Don't hold me back.

My kindness changes to attack.

Please save yourself while you still…