Two: Together; Apart (Sonnet Pair) 1/2

Today I broke a friendship once again

It lately seems to happen every day

I try so to be kind, but what I say

Hurts lovely people, causing grief and pain

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How come? It truly goes against the grain

I long to be a nurturer, and pay

Respect, attention--Sadly, anyway,

My fear and panic leave a lasting stain.

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Oh, Sorrel! I release you, if you'd go,

E'en though I'd rather be your friend forever,

And you could always leave. Alas! I know

You don't deserve this treatment, unintended.

My overthinking tends, so oft, to sever

My best beloved ties. Can this be mended?