Hearts' Mending (4)

But graduation seemed a new beginning:

A different major to enrich my mind,

Fresh challenges and contests for the winning,

A one-bedroom apartment (hard to find).

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Ah! Living on my own, my shy moon waxed,

While self-esteem soon waned, a fleeting dream.

Within me, all felt wrong, far from relaxed;

And with no mate, self-loathing grew extreme.

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To hate oneself's a habit hard to break

You feel that love's not something you deserve.

I thought I'd die alone, my soul forsake...

At twenty-five, my fate began to swerve.

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I gained my first sweetheart, and bought a ring,

To catch this rare, once-in-a-lifetime thing.