Over (poem- freeverse)

There was a time I dreamed of you

Just a smile and a hug

You sat near me, close

Never will that dream be real

.

I let it go when I said

That I approved

Permission granted for you to move on

.

Away you flew, so fast

So far, the distance grew

With every heartbeat

Your happiness was my burden

.

I was supposed to echo,

Happiness with you and for you

It wasn't my permission you wanted

Nor needed.

.

It was my empathy;

To live vicariously through you.

You continue to drag me through

Loss, pain, depression

.

With friendship

Which I don't deserve.

I punish myself by living in the darkness.

At arms' length

.

You don't even know

But the dreams I had are over.

I only wish that the pain was, too.