Wasted Investment

An 'Investment' feels wasted with no return.

All the time and energy

I put into you

And for what?

I see the words 'appreciation'

'friend'

and then

You aren't there.

I see you laughing with others.

Watching shows

Listening to Music

Sharing memories I'm not a part of.

I stand at the door and knock

to see if you want to

do something with me

Anything

I prepare a place where we can

laugh

and play

and listen to music

But you don't answer the door.

Do you have any idea how that feels??!

Then you answer

"I was busy"

"Can you do this for me?"

You don't know that I am in anguish.

I decide to do it just to be near you, just to try to fit in.

But every time I get no thanks, no extra attention, no inside jokes, no laughter, no music, and the door remains closed.

I cry. I toss. I turn.

I remember

What I thought would be the world

Isn't.

I keep trying to make this dream a reality, but I can't.

You don't want to join.

You don't have time

For me.

When all I ever had was time for you.

Investment.

Wasted