If I told you

If I told you what is really on my mind

Right now,

How would you feel?

And how would you react...or respond?

Would you give yourself time first to process the information?

If not, that could maybe be worse.

If you responded, would it be with patience, saying

"I understand but I don't feel that way about you,"

Would you call me a bad person?

Would you be "flattered" (oh please don't say that)?

Or maybe you know already?

Anyhow, I know I'm not supposed to feel that way

For "REASONS"

but you told me that feelings are valid

Even if acting on them is not

but what can I do with these feelings besides act on them?

Telling you may be the wrong thing, or the right thing

I don't know I can't tell I don't dare I'm on the verge of telling you RIGHT NOW

Maybe you should stop me

Maybe I should go away

Because I can't do anything with this romantic love and these hormones

And you don't deserve what my telling you might cause

And I'm not worth loving anyway

So anyway

Bye for now.

My friend/darling

Darling